Sexy, Free and Single

Soooo, hello! How have all of you been? I'm here to blog about a few due stuff :) And a mini little emotional-confession-thingy at the end. So, READ ON!

SMTOWNSG

Soooo, yep! I WENT TO SMTOWNSG omg omg. I got premier tickets and i was really, really very close! Especially when the idols got on these little carts! I saw like zhoumi, EUNHYUK, half of girl's generation, kris and amber! I was dying inside, really. But i was just very sad that donghae took the cart that went the opposite way of where i was sitting ): But, overall, the concert was awesome! Though it rained at the end heh. Here's one picture i have which was taken from tumblr, another one which i took at the event, AND ONE EUNHAE TOOK IN THE PLANE GAHHHH \o/

SURRENDUR CAMP '12

Sooo, i went to kaiying's church, HOGC, for surrendur camp! It was so damnnnn fun! We had a campfire, and many many fun activities! I got to bond more with the people in FL zone and also people in my team, TEAM BOOM! :) Pictures first? Not all pictures are here since i havent got all of them yet! I'll post them as soon as i get them, promise!

{My team and house cheers!}

{This picture above is one of our wet activites and it is a mixture of raw egg, flour, soap and pandan leaves. So, the thing is, we had to crawl on our fours to the other end and bite an apple out of a basin of water. LIKE WHATTTT.}

{Our lunch!}

{Pretty Jollene :*}

{Momsieeee!}

{My camp-bonding-mate, cherie!}

{A crazy and awesome girl, ashleyyy!}

{Cutiepie Mathilda (y)}

{The songs the 'choir' needs to sing during our skit!}

 

{The kallang wave we did in front of the campfire!}

{My gift from my 'angel'}

MAMA2012

SPAZZING TIME. So, MAMA 2012was like yesterday yesterday. Gahhhhh donghae was so cute and eunhyuk was just hot! Overall, the whole thing was great and i would die just to be there, right in front of the stage! I guess i spazzed enough on twitter so i'll keep it short here. I'm so proud of these guys and the 3 awards they earned. They truly deserve the awards and i think they should have won more if not for PSY hahah. I'm also so proud of eunhyuk as he's replacing leeteuk as the leader now, i hope things won't be too hard on him, yea? :)

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my mini-emotional-confession-thingy:

those who follow me on twitter will know that i was 'emo-ing' last night... so the thing is, i just feel very lonely though i have so many people around me. yes, i do have true friends who really care and love me but sometimes, the loneliness is there.  it's always me starting convos and making new friends. i would be glad if there were times when people just come to me and ask, "free for a chat?" and stuff like these. i envy alot of my friends whose twitter are always busy, whose whatsapp is always full of notifications... or when people just randomly txt me and tell me how much they love to have me in their life.  i can't deny the fact that i'm insecure sometimes as i'm not those kind of pretty and skinny girls with many friends and such. i'm just plain old me. this morning and last night, people like crappie, serene and fishy came to ask me if i was okay and stuff and i'm really glad to have them in my life. sometimes i wonder if i'm annoying to certain people and i start to think that they are secretly disliking me or something. i'm very sensitive about this stuff. my friends say that i laugh alot, that i'm always cheerful but is that the real me? i really don't know. people may call me attention-seeking because of this post or call me like i dont know, many nasty stuff but i have to say, what i'm typing now is truly 100% what i feel. sometimes i feel that people only come to me when they need something and i really hate that. because when they do that, i start to ponder if they truly treat me as a friend or not. sometimes i trust people too easily and i really regret it in the end. it's like i trust them and tell them my secrets, but in return they dont trust me and just listen to my secrets for the sake of listening. i cant blame my friends for not caring as i keep my feelings bottled up sometimes. i don't want to be someone people look for only when they're bored and stuff. i want to be someone that people like and trust and someone people look for because they like talking to me. okay, end of story here, really don't want to continue anymore.

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