holidays... not.

really love this photo with roel hehe.

(look at how scared cass is oops)

hey hottie hehe.

hip hop raji. /inside joke/

he's the cutest.

pictures from my last trip at uss. went just for richard. (sigh) totally worth it though. cruisers was amazing and usual and i swear the last show for rf that day totally cracked me up! major love for all of them hehe. richard was the cutest. i don't get how people are scared of him?? he's like cute and hot and cute and idk omg. my absolite fave. will be back at the park on monday, so see you guys then! hehe :)))

(happy belated birthday leon hehe)

had loads of fun baking the cake with my 2/4 mates. love hanging out with them and i miss all of them to bits i swear. :'(

and here's what i'm using to blog tonight. his name is bob and he's my new bestfriend. oh how i love macbooks. hehe.

ok just some fillers for today. will be back soon! have a niee holiday guys! (except css-ians, we still have extended timetable sobs)

ok bye.

of squeals and screams and mental breakdowns.

super funny photo because we decided to stand in a row and block the guys, only jp was blocked tho oops

JAY PEE CUTIE.

atiqah hehe.

ok i look weird but joey took my specs and i can't see ok.

BLAKEEEEEEEEEE.

FAVE FAVE FAVE.

yes i bought him glasses so he won't take other people's ones (like mine.)

didn't thought i'll see him until the parade but i guess i was lucky.

OGIE.

look at this cutie, just look at him.

so, consecutive two days at uss was good hehe. decided to go today instead of tmr as well, all my faves are here today hehe. yesterday was nothing much, just that jp was being extra sweet and joey told me he missed me heheh. today was great but yet super sian at the same time... super tiriing day though we didn't run around as much lol. monster rock was good as there was andy and kev for cheryl haha. #chevin hahahhaha. nothing much to talk about today as i wanna leave it for my spazz corner hehe. i'm just really sad that kt is leaving for thailand tomorrow as that'll mean no kt for a week sobs.

WARNING: SPAZZ CONTENT. 

here goes. first great thing of the day, richard. haven't seen him doing anubis in forever and i'm so glad to be able to see his oh so hot and defined abs today and of course him himself hehe. once he came out, he walked straight to me and cheryl and just growled at us and did some eyebrow thing. so great to see him again as he was only working for one day this week. :((( only caught him for onr of his sets and i'm so regretful that i missed his other two sets sobs. okay, moving on... though i love richard, this encounter with kt made me happier hehe. i thought i would only be able to see kt like only during the parade but i guess luck was on my side. so esther whatsapped me to tell me that kt was sitting like a few rows behind me in mr but i left halfway for rf... oops. and when i saw esther's message i was just like shit because that meant kt saw me rushing ot of the theatre and i felt like so guilty omg. so when we saw him at the diner stage, he sort of looked at us and turned away and i was thing oh shit he ust be mad at me?? idk. but afterwards he caught me staring at him and waved his hands like very happily, not trying to boast but he really looked very happy. then he looked away so i waited for him to look at me again so i can ask for a photo... HAHA. and so he did, and he said sure. when i walked towards him, he was like "come here!" and gave me the biggest hug he has ever given me. i swear i died for a few seconds there. (kt you have absolutely no idea how you can make my day.) so after the hug i just went like "selfie?" and so we took a selfie. and he started pulling the sleeve of my shirt and asked me why i was wearing a long sleeved shirt. i was just like oh i thought it was going to rain and he was like /points at the sky/ nah i think it's going to be a sunny day. and i was just like /laughs awkwardly/ okay seeya later. HAHA. this isn't the end. then, during cruisers, he stood beside me with steven and his friend. he was one of the noisiest person in th crowd i swear and i can't help but laugh at him. all my attention was basically on him and his selfie stick HAHA. he was so cute i swear. ok fast forward to the end of the cruisers, he tried to take a video of the audience and when his camera faced me, i immediately turned around as my hair was messy and all and he looked at me and mouthed "why did you look away" with a sad face. oh god he's so cute. i swear i laughed so much and squealed so much and even squatted on the floor having a mental breakdown like so many times all bc of kt. ok the end i think this is too much i don't want to say anymore. one last thing though, i swear i saw steven staring  at me, this is so awkward does he hate me HAHA. 

ok i'm so sorry all i've been blogging about lately is uss and uss but i did talk about my personal life in my previous post didn't i hehe.

ok bye.

confessions.

these photos were taken on my last trip back which was last wednesday. went back to the park just for kt and richard though i was really, really sick that day. confession #1: i went to the park with a fever of 39degrees but i told club8 i didn't have fever haha. sorry guys i really wanted to go that day.

ok putting uss aside for this post, many things have happened over the weekend and i'm just really sad about the whole incident. losing two bestfriends in one day affected me more than i thought though i was the one who pushed them out of my life. no i'm not going to type out what actually happened but all i can say is that i feel friendship is a two-way thing so if i'm the only one putting in the effort, i'm sorry this friendship is over. i admit i've been drifting a whole lot from my schoolmates lately mainly because i was sick last week and didn't really participate in any school events and ofc there's my regular trips of uss. this whole drifting thing used to affect me a lot and now i'm just kinda used to it. yea i still have lots of friends and all but it just doesn't feel the same but yet i don't really bother trying to go and talk to people lately either as i've been really drained and i'm just tired idek so i'm sorry if we stopped talking. i'm just thankful for the ones whom i've drifted from but is still there for me when i need them. i guess i don't have to name names. 

on a happy side note, this whole incident made me realise that club8+1 cares a lot more than i thought. cheryl, sam, clarissa and cherrine have noticed that i was sad and different in a way and i was like quite shocked haha. carol too, though she's not part of club8+1. i'm just really, really thankful for all these girls and even performers like richard who cared to ask why i haven't been to the park for so long and all. and to think why people wonder why i'm so obsessed with the whole uss thing haha. well, here's your answer. the people i've met there are friends i can keep for life. unlike the people i've met at school... and yay another good news, steven is in singapore and i feel so happy for kt. lol yes it's none of my effing business but i still feel happy and excited for him anyways hehe. :)

ok bye.

back home.

flower girls ft. flower boy raji.

selfies with ma babes

and egglord latona hehe

"black lines make my eyes bigger" -sam

flower girls pt2.

fave.

favefave

(heheehehehehe)

charlie's for a special charlie.

saw raji after seeing the other 5, what luck!

more selfies with ma homies

consecutive two days of uss-ing hehe. met up with my awesome club8 babes after 2 weeks and i'm so glad to see them again. yesterday was nothing much as i only went for one show mehs.

 but today............ wow. today was so amazing i can't describe it in words idek. richard was performing today and i'm just so effing happy to see him again :') kt was doing cruisers as well and it was so great to see his happy lil face again like omg. all the shows were insane today, like literaally. the rockafellas were funny as usual, but now even the cruiser boys are fooling around! (watching kt drop his sunglasses for 57846493 times was the funnies and cutest ehehehe.) i laughed so much and scream so much i'm having a real terrible sore throat and i'm down with fever too :(((( 

ended the day off eating dinner with 6/8 of club8. (hi clarissa if you see this, jiayous for your exams ok and seeya soon ily hehe) dinner was so fun and we all ate 52 plates of sushi?????? i swear cass' laughter is contagious i can't even. sorry if this whole thing is so summarised HAHA. love them so much bc they never fail to make me laugh till i have to stop bc my stomach hurts.

now for the best part of today. writing this in small font bc WARNING: SPAZZ CONTENT. while leaving uss today, we saw kt (thanks to cherrine's awesome eyesight) and he saw us. we saw that he was in a rush so i told him (more of like signalling with my hands) that he doesn't have to come over. but he did in the end and i'm just so thankful. (according to club8) he opened his arms and gave me a hug. all i can remember is "how's your day, i hope it's good" "doing charlie tomorrow" ideky i can't remember anything. i was so shocked and happy and nervous and idk omg. thankfully, for cherrine again, she took a few photos, which explain the photo above. so after we left uss, we saw all 5 of the rf boys hehe. we initially wanted to just say hi from afar but all 5 of them just scooted over and said hi and all. the funniest thing was jp riding behind richard HAHA i swear i died from laughing too much. had a chat with richard on phone while we were otw to dhoby and omg he's too cute to handle. the two of them (kt and richard) has really made my day.

ok bye.