confessions.

these photos were taken on my last trip back which was last wednesday. went back to the park just for kt and richard though i was really, really sick that day. confession #1: i went to the park with a fever of 39degrees but i told club8 i didn't have fever haha. sorry guys i really wanted to go that day.

ok putting uss aside for this post, many things have happened over the weekend and i'm just really sad about the whole incident. losing two bestfriends in one day affected me more than i thought though i was the one who pushed them out of my life. no i'm not going to type out what actually happened but all i can say is that i feel friendship is a two-way thing so if i'm the only one putting in the effort, i'm sorry this friendship is over. i admit i've been drifting a whole lot from my schoolmates lately mainly because i was sick last week and didn't really participate in any school events and ofc there's my regular trips of uss. this whole drifting thing used to affect me a lot and now i'm just kinda used to it. yea i still have lots of friends and all but it just doesn't feel the same but yet i don't really bother trying to go and talk to people lately either as i've been really drained and i'm just tired idek so i'm sorry if we stopped talking. i'm just thankful for the ones whom i've drifted from but is still there for me when i need them. i guess i don't have to name names. 

on a happy side note, this whole incident made me realise that club8+1 cares a lot more than i thought. cheryl, sam, clarissa and cherrine have noticed that i was sad and different in a way and i was like quite shocked haha. carol too, though she's not part of club8+1. i'm just really, really thankful for all these girls and even performers like richard who cared to ask why i haven't been to the park for so long and all. and to think why people wonder why i'm so obsessed with the whole uss thing haha. well, here's your answer. the people i've met there are friends i can keep for life. unlike the people i've met at school... and yay another good news, steven is in singapore and i feel so happy for kt. lol yes it's none of my effing business but i still feel happy and excited for him anyways hehe. :)

ok bye.