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going home straight after school does feel lonely but it strangely feels alot better than hanging out with all of you.

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being replaced by everyone...

fuck last seens.

weekends.

1for1 wuhu

selfies with lky after so long. :))

((perks of studying near rws))

and i got to hang out with cherrine for awhile hehe yay (y)

today was awesome (somehow). i did manange to study geography and a lil chinese and i'm really proud of myself today. i was so near uss, with my pass in my bag but no. i didn't go in at all. MY SELF-CONTROL AT ITS HIGHEST LEVEL. got to see my special charlie for a few seconds from the outside and i swear i teared up and tried so hard to control my tears after he went in. now i know what it feels like to be so close yet so far. :(( met rachel, andy, joe, tim, roel, amelia, kevin and blake today and they're so nice and sweet i love them so much. 5 weeks more to go and it is really heartbreaking to even think about it. sigh. 2 more weeks to exams and i really need to FOCUS LIKE JDFSJFSKJF. :/ 

ok bye for now. 

good vibes.

good vibes all day, everyday. (i wish.)

this week started off really badly and i'm really sad and frustrated with so many things i really want to stop caring and just give everything up. but, can i? common test 3 is coming up in less than a month and i really need to stop letting everything distract me but it's hard........ honestly, i'm not okay. i feel horrible. i doon't even know what's going on with everyone and everything i'm just so confused and helpless. these few days have been so ew and ugh and idk. i swear i'm no the only one feeling this way. but there's one thing i'm thankful for. i found someone who actually understands my situation and it's nice to have a new friend to talk to other than your usual bunch of friends. i keep telling people all the stupid quotes and a bunch of stuff to cheer them up but i can't even make myself feel happy. why can't the whole world just be happy? wy can't i be on a roller coaster ride that only goes up? (tfios inference) life is just really unfair but what can we do? i still choose to believe that everything that is happening right now has a reason behind it. hoping hard for a better week ahead.

(sidetrack) WARNING: spazz content.

basically just read my tweets. ha ha ha. i realised i'm quite lazy to type it all out already. but i'm really thankful for sam and cherrine, and also richard and joey hehe. two calls can my my whole ew and ugh day so yay and happy hehe. (y)

hope you guys will have a great week! (unlike mine)

bye.

beauty & the beast.

(this scene is my favourite.)

so..... yes, beauty and the beast. i've watched it twice this week ideky but i suddenly have a huge urge to blog about it. beauty and the beast have been my favourite disney movie ever since i was young and now, it is my favourite movie in general. belle, (to me) is the most beautiful disney princess ever created. her personality, her voice, her looks and just everything about her just makes me love her and the movie itself so much. of course, the other princesses are really beautiful too but yea.... everyone has their own opinions after all. belle is a bookworm and i am one now partly because of her. (i think) the soundtrack of beauty and the beast is just wow. especially the two links i've added above. you guys should have seen my post on tfios and i can, without any doubt, say that i do love beauty and the beast even more than tfios. that's how much i actually love this movie. this movie has a great storyline and it is somewhat different from the other princess movies..... HAHA. and i just really love it.

have a great week ahead guys. mugging starts tomorrow.
ok bye.

15th.

words can't describe how much i love this photo.

it's finally my birthday. my birthday this year have been so perfect this year i'm just lost for words. i'm really thankful for all the people who have made my birthday this year such a memorable one. i've got everything i've really wanted and really wished for. i cut 3 cakes this year and every single wish i made on all sets of candles came true. (like literally, no kidding) though i would have hoped to spend a part of my birthday with a few other people (which no, i won't name).... i'm still just really satisfied with everything i had this year. :)) i've got all the birthday wishes from all my favourite people and all the memories i made last weekend is perfect.  love each and every single one of you who made this all happen. (y)

WARNING: sadness and bad vibes.

i would hope that whoever is reading this will just either stop reading like NOW. or just not ask me about anything i'm about to type. i just really needed to say this out and i hope the person, or well, people i'm referring to will see this. but yet again, i'm not naming names so it's kinda useless. i did have a great birthday and everything and the past week have been awesome and i was happy for an entire week... but today, i just can't keep up with the good vibes thing anymore. all the bad vibes are overwhelming me and right now, i just wanna go and watch a midnight show of tfios and cry my eyes out but no, bc ew school. many things have changed (DRASTICALLY) over these past few months and i don't know whether i should be happy about it or not... i've gotten alot closer to certain people and drifted away (alot) from many others. as in, yes i do love and am grateful for everything i have right now but.... something's missing. everybody is changing so much, yes including me, and sometimes, it's not a good change. i really, really wanna stay close to some people and just really be friends with them for the rest of my life until i die but i can't. the people i used to know and love have changed into just a random person in my life i just wave hi and bye to. and it sucks. yes, me going to uss have indeed caused me to have drifted from my school life but hey, if they're still the same, i really don't see why i'll drift from them. as in, haha no i'm not blaming people for changing but cnefjbvefiuvherlgnifdus idk how to explain. right now, like NOW, i just wanna stay at home all day and watch disney movies and eat ice cream and sleep. this is pointless. bye.