15th.

words can't describe how much i love this photo.

it's finally my birthday. my birthday this year have been so perfect this year i'm just lost for words. i'm really thankful for all the people who have made my birthday this year such a memorable one. i've got everything i've really wanted and really wished for. i cut 3 cakes this year and every single wish i made on all sets of candles came true. (like literally, no kidding) though i would have hoped to spend a part of my birthday with a few other people (which no, i won't name).... i'm still just really satisfied with everything i had this year. :)) i've got all the birthday wishes from all my favourite people and all the memories i made last weekend is perfect.  love each and every single one of you who made this all happen. (y)

WARNING: sadness and bad vibes.

i would hope that whoever is reading this will just either stop reading like NOW. or just not ask me about anything i'm about to type. i just really needed to say this out and i hope the person, or well, people i'm referring to will see this. but yet again, i'm not naming names so it's kinda useless. i did have a great birthday and everything and the past week have been awesome and i was happy for an entire week... but today, i just can't keep up with the good vibes thing anymore. all the bad vibes are overwhelming me and right now, i just wanna go and watch a midnight show of tfios and cry my eyes out but no, bc ew school. many things have changed (DRASTICALLY) over these past few months and i don't know whether i should be happy about it or not... i've gotten alot closer to certain people and drifted away (alot) from many others. as in, yes i do love and am grateful for everything i have right now but.... something's missing. everybody is changing so much, yes including me, and sometimes, it's not a good change. i really, really wanna stay close to some people and just really be friends with them for the rest of my life until i die but i can't. the people i used to know and love have changed into just a random person in my life i just wave hi and bye to. and it sucks. yes, me going to uss have indeed caused me to have drifted from my school life but hey, if they're still the same, i really don't see why i'll drift from them. as in, haha no i'm not blaming people for changing but cnefjbvefiuvherlgnifdus idk how to explain. right now, like NOW, i just wanna stay at home all day and watch disney movies and eat ice cream and sleep. this is pointless. bye.